Math

I survived my oral math exam!!! Yeah! But my math teacher picked the three two-quarters I was not good, he just did not made a task about the topics in the two quarters I had 10 points (B-). Dumbass! It wasn’t even necessary that he uses the topics of three two quarters, of two two-quarters would have been enough. I saw the tasks and I did not know what to do. In the end, I solved all seven tasks, somehow. For most of them the result seemed wrong. First I had to tell two characteristics why the graph shows the cup from the pic and I had to calculate the maximal diameter. The graph given was shown from x=0 to x=8 and at 8 it had the biggest diameter (I knew it because of the picture given) so I just plugged in the 8 for the x in the function. 

Second, I had to draw a circle with the given centre and the givenvents intersection with the graph. Fortunately I brought my spring bow. So I delineated it into the coordinate system. Because of the spring bow and the given points I knew the radius and I was able to set up the equation for the circle. 

Next, I had to describe how I can calculate the radius exactly.

Then I had to check if the condition f(3)<0,25 is correct so I had to set up the derivation and insert 3 for x. 

The next one consisted of the calculating method and I had to explain what is happening in each step (it was about the volume of revolution)

Then I had to draw a tree diagram about twenty cappuccinos, 14 of them with, 6 without cocoa. From the 14 with cocoa the judges marked them as good with a 70% probability but the ones without only with a probability of 55% and calculate the probability for a cappuccino regardless if it was with or without cocoa to be marked as good. 

Last I had to calculate the probability for three good cappuccinos of five chosen cappuccinos from all the twenty cappuccinos. 

After presentating my teacher showed me that some results (the ones I was certain were correct) could not be right. Great! 

He just asked me some other questions, mainly if I could show them my calculating method. Sometimes the other math teacher said I explained it well but it is wrong what I could change to make it right – I DO NOT KNOW IF I WOULD HAVE I WOULD HAD DONE IT THIS WAY STRAIGHT AWAY! He asked me how a graph with a negative gradient looks like, what I could have done OTHERWISE to proof that the graph on the picture fits the cup (insert a point – WHICH ONE THERE WAS NONE GIVEN, demands)… I am not very interested into getting to know the result. 

I hope my explanation is not that difficult to understand, I cannot express my mathematical thoughts in German so English is even worse.

Results

I got my results from the written part of my A-Levels today. I would have been satisfied with at least 10 points in history and 7-8 points in English and German. 

I cried when I saw how many points I achieved. I managed to get 10 in history and 8 in English but 5 ! points in German. I knew that it was not perfect but I never expected it to be so bad. I couldn’t stop the tears. It was awful. Everyone told me it is not that bad and that some were altogether even worse than me but that does not cheer me up. Okay some probably did not pass and I feel bad for crying because of 3 points if they did not made it and did not cry. But it was so important to be good. I do not know if I should try to improve my points in an extra test. I doubt that I could increase my points a lot. 

I did not hurry with coming home. When.I got home my mum was very disappointed and said she always thought native German speakers without immigrant background are able to get much more points and that this looks like I am totally dump and that no one will hire me. That was really encouraging. My answer was that clever people will know that it is much more than correct German spelling and grammar and if she thinks she would have scored higher but she said that is not comparable and that I am very arrogant thinking that everybody I deal with is dumb. She cannot understand why I left to go to my room. The first thing I did there was eating chocolate. I just made first steps in getting over it and she crushed it and made everything worse. Maybe I should do a year abroad just to get away from her although she is the reason I originally did not want to go…

At the moment I am discovering my love for Metal music🤘🎧🎵

Empty brain

I have to write my last A-Levels exam tomorrow – History. I thought I can do it but it is so much. I have 20 pages (with front and back) with a lot of post-it’s about the German history from 1800 to 1949. Actually, I should know everything until 1990 but my brain and the time are too limited. The only thing I know is what I do not know. When I was afraid of German and English and could not imagine it could be worse. I cannot remember anything from history. My brain is totally blank. Moreover, I am very tired. I had no school today and I am learning since 12 am but it does not stay inside my head. I had hoped that writing it down will help me to learn it but I forgot somehow. Anyway, I think about doing this school year again so failing would help me make up my mind although I think there is nothing more horrible than messing it up. I think I started learning too late. I was convinced my written sheets help me but I CANNOT REMEMBER A DAMN THING! Help! I am so tired (physically and mentally). I am so afraid. History is about knowledge. Why did I chose it again? Oh yeah, because I am worse in any other subject. 

Please keep your fingers crossed. I am so scared! 

BECCA😱😨😰😭 (a total mess)

2/3 

English: done

German: done

The only subject left is history and I have still 6 days until it. I am ONE of the people who write during the longest time. 

The suggestions in German were excellent. The first one was about the poem “Notturno” written by Max Herrmann-Neiße in 1914. Task 1 was to interpret it. The second one was to compare it to the poem “Erwartung” by Joseph von Eichendorff, published 1826? (I am not sure anymore) and to relate it to the historical background. Discussing if lyric is a suitable medium to express human feelings. 

Suggestion B’s first task was to Reader the excerpt of Max Frisch’s novel Stiller and to point out what his situation is. Second, one had to compare the expectations on him to the one on Johanna from  “Die Heilige Jungfrau von Orleans” and how they deal with it. Third, one should compare the relationship of Goethes’s Gretchen and Faust to the quote by Max Frisch  

“Auch sind wir die Verfasser der anderen; wir sind auf eine heimliche und unentrinnbare Weise verantwortlich für das Gesicht, das sie uns zeigen, verantwortlich nicht für ihre Anlage, aber für die Ausschöpfung dieser Anlage.” – Erstes Tagebuch

It means something like we are the authors of other people, too. We are responsible for them in a inescapable way and responsible for the side of them they show us. Not responsible for their aptitude but what they make of it.

Suggestion C was an excerpt of “Die Blechtrommel” by  Task 1) was to summarize it and outline the stylistic and narrative perspective. 2) was to compare the view of the main character and the circumstances of his birth to Grenouille from “The Perfume” by Patrick Süskind. Last, one had to argue why the quote (I do not remember how it goes exactly) that Kafka is afraid of the world because he is not very experienced and that this is a spiral that never stops fits to Kafka’s protagonist K from “The process”.
Of course I picked A without further thinking but for a short time I thought about picking B. I wanted a comparison of poems. But I think I screwed it up. I was not sure what the last stanza of “Notturno” means so after I realised it was written in 1914 I thought that – perhaps – it deals with World War I, too. So I compare the last one to the brutality of War and that it sound more coherent I added this aspect to the analysis of the other stanzas. It seemed so logical because expressionistic poems are often ambiguous. I could have googled if it is right what I wrote but I am afraid that it is wrong so I do not. I am so glad, that I did not have to write maths yesterday😆

Done

hey there,

before I write my second A-Level exam tomorrow I want to tell you how English was. It was okay. When I got the three different suggestions I read them one by one. The first one was about slavery. There was a text about a 11 year old girl, who got a slave for her birthday but does not like it and lets her slave free. The first task was to summarize it. The second one was to analyze the stylistic devices and the narrative perspective and how they support the feeling of the girl. The third one was to write a speech as a speaker on a congress against slavery regarding a given bar chart about slavery in the U.K. today.

Suggestion B was about Ethnic identity. The text given were two excerpts of the drama “disgrace”. First, one had to outline the role of religion in Amir’s family. Second, one had to statuette problems in relation to immigrants in the U.K. regarding material discussed in class and the last one was to assess whether cultural appropriation is reprehensible.

Suggestion C was about South Africa. This was a suggestion which had 3 tasks and a mediation. The mediation was about art as an expression of oppression. Task 1 was to summarize the English text. Task 2 was to compare the text to the picture given and to the killing of Amy Biehl in the novel “Mother to mother” by Sindiwe Magona, which we read in class. Discussing if art IS an expression of unsatisfaction was task 3.

After reading one by one I was sure not to pick the currently read one. I was almost ready to chose the one with the mediation although I thought it would be too much but after reading this one as well I was not sure which I should pick. They were all 💩. The first one I eliminated was C because the mediation text was terrible. It seemed it consisted only of names. Moreover, I did not wanted to work with the novel and was not sure what to write for task 3.

It took me really long to decide between A and B. Eventually, I chose B although I had not understand the text. I would have really liked to take A because writing a speech would have been great but the problem was I had not seen one stylistic device in the text and the task was important so I decided to take B. Fortunately, I understood the text while working with it but I think I wrote a lot of unimportant things and sometimes it is probably hard to understand what I mean. Later Jaqueline, who goes to a different school, told me that her teacher said that the Kultusministerium made a little mistake because there are only 2-3 stylistic devices in the text of suggestion A so it is not exspected to write about the stylistic devices but to write a general analysis. If I had known that I would have taken this suggestion! But I cannot blame my teacher because I asked the other English classes at my school but they have not known about it, too. Now it it over and I cannot change it anymore but this infuriates me more than I thought. Grrrr.

However, tomorrow I write my German A-Level exam and I am very nervous although I do not take it very serious because it would not have been necessary to learn for the English A-Levels so I think, better hope, for tasks like this in German, too, although there was no topic I had wished for in English. In German I would like to have poems from the Expressionism and the Romantic like the task last year. A task about “Die Jungfrau von Orleans” by Schiller, “Die Marquise von O” by Kleist or “Lenz” by Büchner would be okay as well. I definitely do not choose the task about “Der Prozess” by Kafka! Okay, I could pick the speech analysis if there is no other possible task although my teacher exspects a lot of background knowledge there. I am, again, not ready. I have not learned enough, again. I am nervous. I hope I can make it. Wish me luck.

All the best luck to the people who write tomorrow!

Becca;)

December and Mockingjay Part 2

Hey!
Can you believe that it is December already?
I was just so busy with school because we wrote a lot of exams. I got some already back and they were better than the first ones except in Math. I am so worse!
Sometimes it is so cool to go to school but when I have presentations or math I really hate it. Fortunately the holidays start next wednesday.
Do you have all presents for christmas? I do not although I started in September to buy them. I still need something for my grandma and maybe something for my acquaitances.
I even know what I get for christmas because my parents, my sister and I went to the mall last week and there I had to pick a tote. It is pretty beautiful, I make a picture after christmas. My sister will give me the Mockingjay Part 1 DVD and from everyone else I will get money.
By the way I saw the new Mockingjay and I was not delighted. Attentation may contain spoiler. The movie was good but the romance and Katniss’ inner conflict about beeing the mockingjay go too short. Moreover, it is always soooo sad when Finnick and Prim die! Especially Finnick, I mean when you know that he dies you assume that throwing his trident will be his dead or at least this was what I thought. Oh and I was surprised that Katniss was not as mad at Gale as I thought she would be for creating the bomb which killed Prim. The last thing was that it seem unreal and it looked weird when Katniss and Peeta were parents.

 

Well I am sorry but this post is from two weeks ago but we had problems with the Internet so I was just now able to publish it!

Yo!

What’s up?
I am soooooooooooooooooooooooooooo busy with school! This week I wrote the first exams: German and music. German was actually pretty good. We wrote 3 hours about the Jungfrau von Orleans by Schiller. We had to analyze a monologue. I finished it just in time. And music, let’s talk about something different!
The worst: I will write 4 exams next week!
Today was technically a good day: Okay I missed the train and came an hour too late but I talked with my seatmate, she is very nice! And with my former classmates. I do not know what has happened… And I walked together with Jana to the train station and we even talked!!!
Okay I had much homework but who cares? I ordered a movie, the new Cinderella one and two books: All the light we cannot see by Anthony Doerr and The host by Stephenie Meyer (I love this book, I have read that a thousand times in German and want to read it now in English;)) at Amazon. Moreover I found a lot of books I would like to read, I just have to earn much money. I am really excited. It allegedly arrives at tuesday.
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Germany celebrates Tag der deutschen Einheit at saturday with a big festival in Frankfurt and my family and I plan to go there because we have relatives there, where we can stay. I am really looking forward to that.
Good night (Europe)!