Nothing new

Hey guys,

It is a wonder that I haven’t died of boredom yet. I am sooooooo bored. I do not know what to do. I cannot search for a job because I do not know when (and if) I have to leave for the US. Oh, by the way, I have a new suggestion from a Swiss family from Boston with whom I have skyped yesterday. It was awkward and I doubt that they will pick me as their new AuPair. I do not believe that my AuPair year will happen so I am searching for an idea what subject I could study but it either sounds boring or has no future potential. That is so frustrating!

Moreover, I am really down, nothing makes fun anymore (not even reading) and I wish I could sleep the whole day. I thought being finish with school feels better. I wish I could be back at school! (I have never imagined saying this, oh god, it is worse than I thought).

I hope you feel better and have more fun.

Becca

It’s getting serious

Hi guys.

I still do not know what to do after my A-Levels. I completed my Au Pair application last Thursday so I assumed the first families will contact me in the middle of May. I was wrong. The first one wrote me yesterday. I was really surprised and when I saw the E-Mail I felt like I am in a rollercoaster. I had no appetite anymore although it was just a short time before dinner. I haven’t answered it yet because I do not know if I want to go. The family seems nice and I think I agree to a Skype meeting. I am so NERVOUS! 

Becca

Sad

Hey,

I am really melancholic lately. Probably because school time ends in a few days. I was rather sad than relieved after I had written my last exam. Do not ask me why. I couldn’t stop some tears yesterday when my R.E. teacher said goodbye to.us and that we are nice human beings and she really overspending time with us. I do not want school to end. I still do not know what to do afterwards. On Monday I got accepted as an AuPair and I am officially searching for a host family now although I do not know whether I will go eventually. My mom does not like the idea and makes me uncertain. If one had asked me 3 months ago I would have been totally secure that I want to go to the US but now I am not so sure it is what I want. The problem is I do not know what I want. In addition to that I cannot abandon the idea of redoing this year. My math teacher just have me 3!!! points that is equal to an E. Son of a bitch! If he would have give me 4 instead of 1 point for my oral grade I would have gotten the 5 points I need. I mean, I do not disturb his lessons, always do my homework and work in class. 1 point is not fair! I hate him so much. Moreover, he said “Sorry, but I do not know how I can give you a better grade” Maybe my written A-Levels are crap and I have to redo this year anyway. I am very angry now. I would not go the math anymore if I haven’t do my oral A-Levels in math. 

However, have you seen the draft last night? It was my first draft. I wanted to watch it last year but I missed my clock and overslept all three nights. This year I went to bed early (11 pm) and got up again at 1:30 am. I prepared some food: bread, strawberries and yoghurt with raspberries. Luckily I had no school before 8:30 am so I was able to get some sleep after the draft ended at 6am. And tonight it continues!

Becca

Last day

Hey folks, what’s up?

Spring break is almost over but I am not sure if I should be happy or sad. It started great because on Monday last week I met an friend from primary school. I went to her house, where her boyfriend was, too, which I think was a bit disturbing but fortunately he left after a short time to go buying groceries. We have not seen us since December last year so it took us hours to catch up. Unfortunately her life as a mess as mine so we had a lot to talk about, especially our A-Levels. Her subjects are maths, art and German. We later went outside to enjoy the sun and continue talking. Her boyfriend came back but stayed inside. We talked about her grandfather dying a few weeks ago, her boyfriend (of course when he was away), school and that she fights a lot with her friends there, her mothers new husband (who is btw a jerk), her moving to her grandmother in summer break because she cannot bear her mother anymore, her plans after finishing school (she has no specific ones – maybe working), about the oral part of the A-Levelsand that we are not motivated to learn, that she is afraid that she totally messed up the A-Levels and we wallowed in memories. When her mum came home she made us come eating self made brownies. I got to know Naomi’s step dad Gordon, he asked how A-Levels went with me and I answered it was okay. He and Naomi’s mum started criticizing Naomi and me because A-Levels are totally easy and they passed it without effort. They then asked us questions like when did the first humans settle in the US (I knew that – 1619 in Jamestown), who / what is Othello (I have heard about it and know that it is written by Shakespeare but that’s it – it was not enough) why the most spoken language is English and not German ( I know this because my mum keeps telling me that but I have never heard of it in school) and other questions which were irrelevant for the A-Levels. Naomi and I could not answer much so they said we were dump and no wonder that we are not sure if we pass the A-Levels. I have never felt so dump! I can totally understand why Naomi wants to move, her mother was different when she was still single. 
The day after that my mum and I cleaned the terrace that means we have to clean the wooden floor by hand. We do it every year by scrubbing it with a dandy brush on our knees which takes a minimum of 3 hours. Well, we did it and afterwards everything hurt. I always feel like a sailor cleaning the floor of a ship. 
On Wednesday my mum and I went to the mall to buy a dress for the Abi Ball. 90 minutes and 20 dresses later I found one. I means it is not my dream dress but it looks good. Originally I did not want a blue dress because I am almost always wearing blue but the other colors looked really bad when I wore them so eventually I had to pick between two blue dresses, one was completely dark blue and high-necked. On the top were dark blue sequins, the other one was dark blue, too and had a silver belt and a heart-formed neckline, and a dark blue dress with a V-neckline and lace. I have not picked the one my mum preffered and the shop Assistent said I have picked the most teenage-locking one. I picked the dark blue one with the sequins.                         After buying it we split up and everyone had one hour on their own. I went to a multimedia shop, a grocery store, a decoration store and a book shop. In the end I bought two books and some fake flowers. When we met again we went on shopping for clothes. After 7 hours in the mall we returned home. To be honest, more often I see my dress the more I like it. 
The next days were boring, I was at home and enjoyed the time my sister was skiing with my uncle and his family. I read a lot and watched TV, I am almost through with Prison Break, I have to watch episode 1 of season 5 so I can watch the new episode tomorrow on Tv. I think they should not have make a new season, (!!! Spoiler alert !!! Because I liked that Michael died. Do not get me wrong, I really liked Michael and I have cried very much when I saw his gravestone and when he sacrificed himself for Sara and the Baby but I think it is awesome that there is no typical happy end! They are free but he is dead. It is typical for the show because often characters died one died not exscpected. ) I am curious how the new season is and I am going to watch the first episode in the evening. 

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Last weekend the weather was incredibly good so I sat outside the whole time and read. Silly me has not thought about sun protection so I had a bad sunburn afterwards. But it was okay. It was very hot. Unfortunately the weather worsened within the week and yesterday it rained a lot. Fortunately I was able and motivated to clean my car beforehand. It took me 3 hours to clean it up from the in- and outside. My mum and grandma watched me the whole time and gave unbelievable useful tips. During cleaning it my motivation said goodbye and I wanted to be finish asap but my perfection was in the way and so I cleaned it up very hearty. 
On Wednesday I went to the mall with Jaqueline. We have not seen us for a long time, too. I drove us (although I hate driving or at least I hate it when I am not alone) there. It went very well and there we rambled through the shops because we both did not have much many left. We went looking for dresses for Jaqueline for the AbiBall but she was not keen to try them on so we did not found one. We spend a lot of time in the book shop to discuss the books there which we have read and recommend them or not to each other. Eventually we left without buying one. After that we went to the decoration shop and I bought an angel figure for my mum(she loves them), a frame and a glass container. We went to Starbucks and while we drank our coffee we talked about, of course, our A-Levels, about redoing the school year (she is the only one who understands why I want to do it again), about her friends, the Parkplatzparty, Eastern, dresses, what to do after school and what to do after having no classes anymore in May. It was great to talk to her and I love meeting her. We should definitely meet more often. We went into some fashion shops but did not buy anything and after her buying some chocolate for her parents we left after 4 hours and drove home. 
Yesterday was boring, my mum went grocery shopping and I went with her. I remembered that I still have to write a poem for the poetry slam in German, make my presentation for English which I have to present on Tuesday and make my politics homework which I need on Tuesday as well. And this is excaxtly my plan for today in addition to reading and doing sports. The weather is good so I am probably going outside to do so. 

I hope you have a nice Friday! Becca XXX

Spring break!!!

Well, no we are in Germany so Spring Break is no big thing here. A lot of my class mates go on holidays for example to Italy, Austria or South Africa. But I stay at home. I can start learning for the oral part of my A-Levels which take place at the end of May. What I surely do is going to the vet with Frau Schröder on Monday. Moreover I asked Jaqueline and a friend from primary school if we can meet. We have no date yet. I really want to binge watch Prison  Break. I started watching it 1 month ago. I am currently in the middle of season 3. I LOVE IT. IT IS MY NEW FAVORITE TV SERIES. I cannot believe it is 10 years old. I was 8 when it aired on TV. Weird. I really like Wentworth Miller and Sarah Wayne Callies. They have a great chemistry. I think the first season was the best one. Okay the second one was only slightly worse but I really dislike Season 3. I do not know why. I think it is weird and I do not think that Bellick’s development is realistic. I do not want to spoiler much. I did not start the show because I heard there will be a fifth season but because we got Amazon Prime and there are not many movies and series I am interested in which you could watch for free. Believe me or not it was coincidence. Since then I am totally addicted and tried to watch two episodes a day but when the A-Levels started I missed that goal more often. Originally I planned to finish the series around the 8th April because then the new episodes air on German TV but when I want to accomplish that I have to increase the number of episodes per day. I do not like the idea because I want to enjoy the show as long as possible so I am not able to watch the new episodes on TV. Maybe I am buying the DVD later. 

Have a nice day. It is going to be 25 C today so I am going to spend my time outdoors today.

XOXO Becca❤

Time flies

Oh my god! Only 23 days left until I have to write my first A-Levels! I am not ready, not a bit! For English, one has to learn not that much because the content is only 1/3 of the grade. Much worse is history, where one has to learn everything from French Revolution in 1789 until now! There are 36 days ’til I have to write my A-Levels in history but I still have to sum up all the  teaching content of the last one and a half years so I really have to hurry up! The problem is my motivation is not existent I am even ditching school right now. I tell myself that I do it to learn for my A-Levels all the time although I know that I won’t do anything for it in the end. I am such a lazy person!

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Sorry!

Hi Guys,

I am so sorry that it is almost a month ago, that I wrote the last time. I thought – even because I already started this blog – I would write more often. When I start something like a Twitter Account I am really excited and almost addicted to it for at least a week and then I am not in the mood to continue it anymore more often than not. I hope this will be different with this blog! I never thought that it would be so hard to handle school and free time. I rarely have free time! Since I transferred to a new school last summer I nearly do stuff for school. I have to do a presentation in PE about Newton and the Law of Inertia and in German I have to do a presentation about Lessing and his Goeze-Disput, also known as fragments dispute. AHHHHHHHHHH! I am so tired of everything (I am also very sleepy, also I was able to sleep ’til 8am yesterday because the first 2 lessons Latin dropped out. (Luckily) The train had a delay about 20 minutes so I missed my following train and went home because it would not have been worth to take the next train, which had been driven an hour later because I only had one lesson ( a lesson lasts 45 minutes) and when I would have arrived at school the lesson would have been over. Fridays I have only 4 lessons every two weeks. Yesterday the chemistry lesson dropped out, too. I did not think I missed much. Unfortunately I had vocational aptitude test in Wiesbaden. I do not have the slightest idea what I should/could do after school. I always wanted to be a pediatrician but a) I am too dumb and b) I do not like working with children – I made an internship in a kindergarten, it was horrible – and c) I participated in a first aid training, I was not bad but it was no fun and I think it is very disgusting sometimes. I appreciate people who like working as a doctor and it is necessary but it is no option for me. So I went there, the girls from my class, who took part in the test, too, were already there. The test lasted 4 hours. I thought there would be only questions about me and my personality but there questions about maths, PE, German, general knowledge and me and where I could imagine to work later. OMG, it was so stressful. The test was designed that we were not able to answer all questions so they were also able to see how we can handle stress. There were tasks like ‘Find the number which does not belong in the line : 8 … 98 … 16 … 49 … 32 …29 … 64 ( ok this is an easy one). We get the results in 2 – 4 weeks. Such a long time and then I find out I should work as a cleaning lady. The test costed 20 €! Ok no complaining ’til I have it. What did you do this weekend or are you going to do? I hope this is reading someone (probably not even if I had not a break which lasted approx. 4 weeks my life is not interesting) if not this is really crazy like communing with myself. I think I get insane. I do not know why but the word insane reminds me of TVD. I love(d) TVD! I mean ’til Season 4 it was good but Season 5 was really crazy I mean the most of the plot does not even make sense! Ok to be honest I only watched half of it and Season 6 fucks me of! SPOILER ALERT I mean Steroline should be friends not lovers and ok, it is cool that Alaric and so on is back but that is so unnecessary. The producers ran out of ideas. And Elena is as annoying as always, she will never grow up! Everybody has only to look out for her! With all one’s heart it was needless to let die Stefan first and then Bonnie and Damon in Season 5! Is the goal of the show that every character died at least once? In every season there are many new characters which all die after a short time. Also the characters do not develop. How long will this go on? It is boring now. So I decided to stop watching it. The only reason I watched it ’til now was Caroline Forbes. She is really great. I would love to be a little bit more like her. Ok I also still hope that Klaroline happens. They are sooooo cute! I do not understand how they could replace Klaus by Enzo. I mean it is obvious that they did it because they are both evil, good-looking and only nice to Caroline. Maybe if Enzo would have been there first I would have shipped Carenzo but KLAROLINE FOREVER!!!

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The last one at Prime Time Television!!!

Ok I talked to much about TVD, back to live. Today I did nothing except eating, showering and reading fanfics about Jelsa but I did not find a good one yet. Today was a lazy day, tomorrow I have to do homework and the presentations. :-((((( I do not want to!

CU Becca

P.S. The result from the task is the number 29 does not fit in, it should be replaced by 24,5.

P.P.S. KLAROLINE!!!