Birthdays

Hey,

I really do not like August. Okay, it’s summer and I like the warm and sunny weather where one can sit outside in the sun drinking a cold drink and reading a great book (In my opinion one cannot read every book at every weather, I believe the weather has to match the atmosphere of the book, weird I know. A popular example is Twilight, I prefer to read it while it’s bad weather.) Okay, I got distracted. What I wanted to tell you is that I really hate August because it’s my birthday month. I despise my birthday. It’s my birthday this week and I can’t wait for it to be over. There are barely any things I abhor more than having birthday. The thing is it is kinda New Years Eve (the ones of you who follow me for a longer time now know how much I dislike it). Everyone says nice things and treats you especially kindly just because it’s your birthday. You have to be lovely too because it is your birthday you are supposed to be happy and charming to your guests, you are not allowed to be mad. Moreover, you are the center of attention, you have to decide which food for dinner and what movie to watch although the other 364 (365) days no one cares about your opinion. The presents do not make it better. You are exspected to like them and even if I like them they do not compensate the stress. I prefer not having birthday and that’s probably the reason I haven’t thrown a party the past years. My plan for tomorrow is to go for a run in the morning and spend the rest of the day by reading in the sun  (it is said to be sunny and warm) preferably “Voyager” by Diana Gabaldon. It will be a very calm day and I exspect no surprises, I get 19, that is nothing special, it is just frustrating because I will get 20 next year and I have always considered 20 as old. *Sigh*

I am on the road now because I want to sign the contract for working as a hostess finally so I have to bake the cake for tomorrow in the evening. I know it is a bit depressing when the birthday girl has to bake her cake herself. This will be the second cake I baked this week, I guess I bake a lot when I am bored. It is going to be an Amarula cheesecake after I already made an Amarula chocolate chip cake (Now that the Amarula bottle is open I have to get it empty in a couple of days and lacking of friends to drink it with – drinking it alone is so sad and full of calories – I have to use it for baking.

Oh and for the German football fans: This Sunday there is a day almost totally dedicated to American Football on ProSiebenMaxx where they even show one preseason game (I would have almost missed it so I want to draw you attention to it!) 

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Results

I got my results from the written part of my A-Levels today. I would have been satisfied with at least 10 points in history and 7-8 points in English and German. 

I cried when I saw how many points I achieved. I managed to get 10 in history and 8 in English but 5 ! points in German. I knew that it was not perfect but I never expected it to be so bad. I couldn’t stop the tears. It was awful. Everyone told me it is not that bad and that some were altogether even worse than me but that does not cheer me up. Okay some probably did not pass and I feel bad for crying because of 3 points if they did not made it and did not cry. But it was so important to be good. I do not know if I should try to improve my points in an extra test. I doubt that I could increase my points a lot. 

I did not hurry with coming home. When.I got home my mum was very disappointed and said she always thought native German speakers without immigrant background are able to get much more points and that this looks like I am totally dump and that no one will hire me. That was really encouraging. My answer was that clever people will know that it is much more than correct German spelling and grammar and if she thinks she would have scored higher but she said that is not comparable and that I am very arrogant thinking that everybody I deal with is dumb. She cannot understand why I left to go to my room. The first thing I did there was eating chocolate. I just made first steps in getting over it and she crushed it and made everything worse. Maybe I should do a year abroad just to get away from her although she is the reason I originally did not want to go…

At the moment I am discovering my love for Metal music🤘🎧🎵

🎶My Party, your Party, everybody join the Party…🎶

Okay, I am on my way back home now. It was like I had predicted only worse . No-one of my friends (I call them like that because I do not know how to call them instead, I mean I get along with them very well, we talk in school and chat although we do not meet outside of school and do not even spend our breaks together so I am uncertain about our relationship) was there. First, I did not know to whom I should go but decided to go to the girls from my major class. Well, they ignored me and it seemed like they did not want me there. I did not know where to go instead so I stayed there. More and more left and I felt like a total Idiot. Fortunately, one girl from my history class, the one that wrote history yesterday too, came to me and we talked about the exam yesterday. When she left only two girls were still there so I stayed with them. They talked about their experiences together and I wished I could go but thought a) that it is ridiculous to go there for only 45 minutes when it took me almost an hour to get there and b) that it would look weird if I left as first one that early. I drank some beer and Apfelwein. A “friend” who lives in town wrote me the whole time she would come. I stayed there 2 1/2 hours felt like an idiot and got shot with a ball but she did not come. When I was leaving she wrote she can come now. I think she was mad when I said she does not have to come anymore I am leaving. Of course, I could have stayed but I had to go to the bathroom and our school was already closed so I had to leave. She could have come earlier anyway, we already talked about it yesterday. But, yes, I feel a little bit bad about it. I hope my friend in Frankfurt had more fun! 

XOXO a disappointed Becca 

Me, again

And hi there, a third time.
I just wanted to inform you my cat is back.
I am still bored although I just found out that the song “Nehmt Abschied Brüder”, which I learned at school, is the English song “Old lang syne”, which is a New Year’s Eve song. Why I write about it? Lea Michele sang the song at the end of New Year’s Eve and I was sure that I know the melody and even remembered the lines: “Die Zukunft liegt in Finsternis und macht das Herz uns schwer” and I googled it and bam there it was. Bam. Okay, I do not know what else I can write. By the way, we do not have firework this year. I hate New Year’s Eve, my sis is not there, my mum wants to go to bed after midnight asap and my dad says he only does it for us but I think he just do not want to be the only one who watches it… Yup. So again, Happy New Year, especially for Greece, Egypt and all other countries in this time zone.
We are next guys. I think I am going to my parents now and I am hungry, who wants to start in a new year hungry? Oh I hear now Hong Kong sang Old lang syne when they welcomed 2017.
CU next year!

Becca♥

Hello, it’s me…

Hi, it’s me, again. I know you are probably thinking: What does she want, she wasn’t able to write for a year and now twice a day?
Yeah, you are right. It is just very, very boring and I feel very lonely so I thought why not write again?
Currently I watch New Year’s Eve and I feel (like every year) lonely. My sister left for the party, my dad and I had a fight at dinner, like every year. We always fight on New Year’s Eve and then on midnight everyone pretends that everything is alright and how much one loves each other and especially my dad tells us every year we should stay how we are. That is so insincere. I hate it.
Moreover I am worried that my cat does not come back before midnight, she has done it before on her first New Year’s Eve because she was so scared. Usually we do not let her go outside but she does not want to use the cat toilet, she only does her business outside and we can’t stand her wandering around and crying terribly. I thought she has almost 3 hours left to come back and it is very cold so she comes back after an hour but she is still not here. I hope she comes back in time.
The movie is almost over and I do not have the slightest idea what to do afterwards. It is going to be very boring. I do not want to celebrate with my parents especially not with my dad. I know, I know that’s wrong but it is like this every year and he is never NEVER able to apologize. You are probably saying: Becca, the wiser head gives in. I know that you are right but it is always the same and I have had enough. Well, it is likely that I will give in a few minutes before midnight so I am just now very furious.
I AM SO BORED. Even if my dad and I would not have had that fight I would not like be with him right now because he and my mum are watching an odd music show about old songs (and with old I mean they are so old even my mum does not know a lot of them!)

I hope you have a nice day/night/evening and please ignore me I am just furious and very bored.
Guten Rutsch and happy new year!

Becca♥

The true New Year’s Eve

Ok guys, I was wrong, New Year’s Eve was completely different!

After I posted New Year’s Eve I went upstairs to my room to watch the New Year’s Celebration in Sydney, it was amazing, especially the gold rain from the Harbour Bridge! Unfortunately the webcams did not work and it aired on no German TV channel so I zapped around and foIMG_1252[1].jpgund BBC World News, Euro news and Sky news – fortunately! Then I tried to watch a New Year’s Celebration somewhere in the world at the full hour, I published the pictures in my Gallery, they are in a bad quality because I took the pictures with my iPod. Well I sat there, the whole day, and watched TV. My mum came back from work because we had a fight because I reminded her that my sister is a vegetarian but we had nothing to eat for her for dinner. Moreover, she said she does not wanna go to church because she has still so much to do so we stayed at home and I was soo bored and because of our fight I did not wanna help her (very

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Ryan (Lucas Grabeel) and Sharpay (Ashley Tisdale)

childish, I know). We started eating at 7pm and were finished at 9pm. And that means for me? You are right I did not  watch New Year’s Eve but HSM 1 + 2. Everyone was on his / her own.  We got to know that in Munich was a terror threat. Well it is kinda difficult to realise that there could be suicide bombers that near… Fortunately nothing happend thanks to the French intelligence agency!
My mum went to bed at 11pm and my sister, my dad and I started watching James Cameron’s Avatar and stopped it 10 minutes before 12. We got our champagne and went outside to fire our only firework. It was okay. The sight was terrible because of the fog. We went back inside where Frau Schröder woke up my mum because she miaowed really loud. Mum just wished us a happy new year and got back to bed while I cuddled with my cat and we continued watching Avatar. I excused myself  5 minutes before 1 so I could watch the Celebration in London. A short time after I came back I fell asleep. I went to bed at 3 am after I watched the New Year’s Celebration in Rio.
THE REALLY REALLY BAD THING IS THAT I OVERSLEPT THE CELEBRATION IN NYC ALTHOUGH I SET FOUR ALARM CLOCKS!!! Damn it! I try it next year again. I got up at 9am and watched Cinderella. After that I made breakfast and at 12 pm my dad and my sister got up aswell. I hope your New Year’s Eve was awesome, I still hate it!

New Year’s Eve

Good morning! I hope you all had wonderful christmas! I really do not like New Year’s Eve! It is always the same. I do not know what to do the whole day. I try to recall the year and write down my wishes, high- and lowlights. Then I watch a movie I saw this year the first time and liked it the most. After that my mum, grandma and I go to church. It is pretty cool, the best sermon of the year is on New Year’s Eve. In former times I made New Year Cards for my parents, my sister and my grandmother. Do you have any New Year’s resolutions? I do not have any. My resolution was every year to start putting my hands up in school but I never have so I do not make it. Well once I wanted to lose weight and it worked but like I told you already I gained it again. After church we start preparing dinner ( it was Raclette last year – very popular in Germany on New Year’s Eve as well as this year’s dinner Fondue. My mum eats cheese Fondue and the rest of us normal Fondue that means hot pot. We have beef, pork and chicken. I love chicken!   I do not know what my sister’s gonna eat, I mean she does not eat cheese and is a Vegetarian since sunday.) This year’s gonna be different than always because my mum works now and has to work tomorrow morning so she has to get up at 4am. Usually we eat dinner, play games like Monopoly, Mensch ärger dich nicht (Ludo), eat chips and my grandma comes over half an hour before midnight, then we do lead pouring, for which one needs a lot of fantasy which I do not have, my dad fires the fireworks and then we watch a movie, I do not know why but often it is From Paris with Love with John Travolta or Mission Impossible IV, I probably remember it better than the other ones because I write it down but this year I do not know how it is (I tell you later). I know that my mum goes to bed before midnight probably ’round 11pm. She is sure that the fireworks won’t wake her up but I bet they will.
The reason why I hate New Year’s Eve is that my parents say at midnight, you are great, stay the way you are but on the other 364/365 days in the year they critize me and everyone to change. I hate it! Moreover it is really sad that another year is over. Furthermore Frau Schröder is always really scared, last year she wanted to go outside at 4pm and I thought she would be back before 12am, before the fireworks start, but she did not come home although I called her. She was really scared of the fireworks and came back not until January 2. And the last point is that everyone has fun on parties but I have to stay at home. This year’s New Year’s Eve is gonna be really sad because after dinner I am gonna watch either High School Musical 1 + 2 – Karaoke Version with my sister or New Year’s Eve (both air on TV). What I watch depends on when we finish dinner, when we finish it before 8.15pm I am gonna watch New Year’s Eve else I watch HSM because I know the movies already ( almost by heart ).
Since 4 hours I wanted to watch the fireworks in New York but first I had no own computer and last year I was too tired to get up, I have to get up at 6 am for it. This year I am gonna try it again.
Well let’s see how it will be!

The first ones already celebrated New Year’s Eve and in less than 30 minutes Australia will welcome 2016 aswell!