Police interrogation

Hey there,

I am very busy with learning for my A-Levels lately but I try to have time for my Host family search as well.
My dream family from Texas rejected me unfortunately and I was very desperate until I got a new suggestion yesterday. I was sure that I will never find a good host family, maybe because I am too late or my application is total crap.

I wrote with the host dad of the newly suggested host family (from Chicago) and we arranged a Skype Interview for today. I was not very nervous because I thought it will be as casual as the one with the host mum from Texas last week. Think again! It was horrible ( and lasted even longer!) The host dad asked me a lot of questions, sometimes even very private ones like how my parents punished me or who I am closest to in my family and why. He wanted to know a lot of things (my hobbies, in detail, e.g. how often and what I cook, my driving behaviour, e.g. which car I drive and how often, if I had been in a foreign country alone, e.g. where I did my internship, how it was, how my exchange to England was, and so on. A ton of questions, I was afraid that it will never end. It was worse than every police interrogation I could imagine. Sometimes I had difficulties to express what I want to say but I think he understood me and even said my English is very good! At the end I was able to ask some questions and it seemed like he want to have perfect kids so they are constantly under pressure to improve. Moreover there were quite a few rules for the AuPair and he emphasised that the AuPair would be a worker with special treatment but a worker! In addition to this electronic devices like phones and tablets are not allowed there.

That is not the family I searched for so I just declined a second Skype interview, this time with the host mum.

Certain but disappointed 

Hi people, 

the Skype Interview and my situation at home let me see that I should and want to be an AuPair although I know that my mum will be sad about it. I was so hopeful aboutthefamily from Texas and I really imagined living there. I wrote their current AuPair but she didn’t answer me. I think this could be thereason they did not pick me. They might have thought that I am not interested in them because their AuPair has not got my email because it maybe got into her spam folder. I do not know. What I know was that I was very disappointed that they did not pick me as their AuPair. I really wanted it. This made me realize that I want to do a year abroad. Although I never truly believed they would pick me (I screwed up the Skype Interview, I asked not enough questions and talked too less all in all and maybe because they thought I never emailed their AuPair and I do not care enough – although I did). I haven’t heard of them for two days and when I saw that I got an email yesterday evening I knew that this would be a refusal email so I was afraid to open it. I was totally down yesterday and i maybe cried a bit. The only thing I could think about today was that they did not want me although I was the AuPair’s favorite. So I screwed it up by being me. Great. I never got am positive answer to any application I sent, regardless to whom or what. Both families who turned me down said that my application is great and I will easily find a host family. Haha, good joke. Three families wrote me in three weeks. I will never find a family until September. I know it sounds ridiculous because it seems like I want to take part in the AuPair Programme since Tuesday but you know I really wanted this a long time before and I just got uncertain because of school and my family.  

Results

I got my results from the written part of my A-Levels today. I would have been satisfied with at least 10 points in history and 7-8 points in English and German. 

I cried when I saw how many points I achieved. I managed to get 10 in history and 8 in English but 5 ! points in German. I knew that it was not perfect but I never expected it to be so bad. I couldn’t stop the tears. It was awful. Everyone told me it is not that bad and that some were altogether even worse than me but that does not cheer me up. Okay some probably did not pass and I feel bad for crying because of 3 points if they did not made it and did not cry. But it was so important to be good. I do not know if I should try to improve my points in an extra test. I doubt that I could increase my points a lot. 

I did not hurry with coming home. When.I got home my mum was very disappointed and said she always thought native German speakers without immigrant background are able to get much more points and that this looks like I am totally dump and that no one will hire me. That was really encouraging. My answer was that clever people will know that it is much more than correct German spelling and grammar and if she thinks she would have scored higher but she said that is not comparable and that I am very arrogant thinking that everybody I deal with is dumb. She cannot understand why I left to go to my room. The first thing I did there was eating chocolate. I just made first steps in getting over it and she crushed it and made everything worse. Maybe I should do a year abroad just to get away from her although she is the reason I originally did not want to go…

At the moment I am discovering my love for Metal music🤘🎧🎵

That was fast! 

Hey there,

new news from the AuPair front. I got an Email from a new Host family on Friday. I replied approximately 16 hours later. The kids are soooo cute! A girl (9) and a boy (6). The family seems very sporty and active. They picked me probably because of my very active video which does not mirror my real life, I just needed scenes with children whuchand was easiest by jumping trampoline and playing soccer and I wanted to show that I do sports sometimes with the running. It is only now that I noticed that I seen like a sports fanatic in the video. Great. I haven’t got an answer on my Email yet. That is not so bad I mean now I can enjoy my last week of school without being nervous about my interview and I AM STILL NOT SURE IF I WANT TO DO THIS. I mean it is very selfish. My mum relies on me and if I leave she is alone with my dad and my sis with whom she has a lot of fights. 

Update: The family wrote me tonight. I cannot open it. My motto: If I do not know it it isn’t there. Haha, naïve. 

No match

Hey guys! 

I turned down the offer of the host family from Atlanta. I checked out their site on the AuPair website. The e-mail sounded great but when I read the letter to the future AuPair I was not certain that this is the family I want. The kids have ADHD and have to take pills and are often naughty but “it is very funny and difficult not to laugh about it” What? Totally funny when they do what they want. Moreover, I really do not want the parents working from home. I would always feel watched. Moreover, there not only lived the parents with its two children but all grandparents too. The biggest problem was that I would have have to take my holidays when they were in summer holidays only a few weeks after I would have arrived. I do not have money then. The good things would have been that I would have to work weekdays often so I had free on weekends most of the time. Moreover, Atlanta is cool although I would prefer the West Coast. The family looks nice too and has a lot of workers so I would not have much to do. But I was wondering why they even need an AuPair with all this people living there… Maybe I am too picky or my subconscious wants to tell me that deep inside me I do not want to go to the US… 

Becca

It’s getting serious

Hi guys.

I still do not know what to do after my A-Levels. I completed my Au Pair application last Thursday so I assumed the first families will contact me in the middle of May. I was wrong. The first one wrote me yesterday. I was really surprised and when I saw the E-Mail I felt like I am in a rollercoaster. I had no appetite anymore although it was just a short time before dinner. I haven’t answered it yet because I do not know if I want to go. The family seems nice and I think I agree to a Skype meeting. I am so NERVOUS! 

Becca

Last day

Hey folks, what’s up?

Spring break is almost over but I am not sure if I should be happy or sad. It started great because on Monday last week I met an friend from primary school. I went to her house, where her boyfriend was, too, which I think was a bit disturbing but fortunately he left after a short time to go buying groceries. We have not seen us since December last year so it took us hours to catch up. Unfortunately her life as a mess as mine so we had a lot to talk about, especially our A-Levels. Her subjects are maths, art and German. We later went outside to enjoy the sun and continue talking. Her boyfriend came back but stayed inside. We talked about her grandfather dying a few weeks ago, her boyfriend (of course when he was away), school and that she fights a lot with her friends there, her mothers new husband (who is btw a jerk), her moving to her grandmother in summer break because she cannot bear her mother anymore, her plans after finishing school (she has no specific ones – maybe working), about the oral part of the A-Levelsand that we are not motivated to learn, that she is afraid that she totally messed up the A-Levels and we wallowed in memories. When her mum came home she made us come eating self made brownies. I got to know Naomi’s step dad Gordon, he asked how A-Levels went with me and I answered it was okay. He and Naomi’s mum started criticizing Naomi and me because A-Levels are totally easy and they passed it without effort. They then asked us questions like when did the first humans settle in the US (I knew that – 1619 in Jamestown), who / what is Othello (I have heard about it and know that it is written by Shakespeare but that’s it – it was not enough) why the most spoken language is English and not German ( I know this because my mum keeps telling me that but I have never heard of it in school) and other questions which were irrelevant for the A-Levels. Naomi and I could not answer much so they said we were dump and no wonder that we are not sure if we pass the A-Levels. I have never felt so dump! I can totally understand why Naomi wants to move, her mother was different when she was still single. 
The day after that my mum and I cleaned the terrace that means we have to clean the wooden floor by hand. We do it every year by scrubbing it with a dandy brush on our knees which takes a minimum of 3 hours. Well, we did it and afterwards everything hurt. I always feel like a sailor cleaning the floor of a ship. 
On Wednesday my mum and I went to the mall to buy a dress for the Abi Ball. 90 minutes and 20 dresses later I found one. I means it is not my dream dress but it looks good. Originally I did not want a blue dress because I am almost always wearing blue but the other colors looked really bad when I wore them so eventually I had to pick between two blue dresses, one was completely dark blue and high-necked. On the top were dark blue sequins, the other one was dark blue, too and had a silver belt and a heart-formed neckline, and a dark blue dress with a V-neckline and lace. I have not picked the one my mum preffered and the shop Assistent said I have picked the most teenage-locking one. I picked the dark blue one with the sequins.                         After buying it we split up and everyone had one hour on their own. I went to a multimedia shop, a grocery store, a decoration store and a book shop. In the end I bought two books and some fake flowers. When we met again we went on shopping for clothes. After 7 hours in the mall we returned home. To be honest, more often I see my dress the more I like it. 
The next days were boring, I was at home and enjoyed the time my sister was skiing with my uncle and his family. I read a lot and watched TV, I am almost through with Prison Break, I have to watch episode 1 of season 5 so I can watch the new episode tomorrow on Tv. I think they should not have make a new season, (!!! Spoiler alert !!! Because I liked that Michael died. Do not get me wrong, I really liked Michael and I have cried very much when I saw his gravestone and when he sacrificed himself for Sara and the Baby but I think it is awesome that there is no typical happy end! They are free but he is dead. It is typical for the show because often characters died one died not exscpected. ) I am curious how the new season is and I am going to watch the first episode in the evening. 

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Last weekend the weather was incredibly good so I sat outside the whole time and read. Silly me has not thought about sun protection so I had a bad sunburn afterwards. But it was okay. It was very hot. Unfortunately the weather worsened within the week and yesterday it rained a lot. Fortunately I was able and motivated to clean my car beforehand. It took me 3 hours to clean it up from the in- and outside. My mum and grandma watched me the whole time and gave unbelievable useful tips. During cleaning it my motivation said goodbye and I wanted to be finish asap but my perfection was in the way and so I cleaned it up very hearty. 
On Wednesday I went to the mall with Jaqueline. We have not seen us for a long time, too. I drove us (although I hate driving or at least I hate it when I am not alone) there. It went very well and there we rambled through the shops because we both did not have much many left. We went looking for dresses for Jaqueline for the AbiBall but she was not keen to try them on so we did not found one. We spend a lot of time in the book shop to discuss the books there which we have read and recommend them or not to each other. Eventually we left without buying one. After that we went to the decoration shop and I bought an angel figure for my mum(she loves them), a frame and a glass container. We went to Starbucks and while we drank our coffee we talked about, of course, our A-Levels, about redoing the school year (she is the only one who understands why I want to do it again), about her friends, the Parkplatzparty, Eastern, dresses, what to do after school and what to do after having no classes anymore in May. It was great to talk to her and I love meeting her. We should definitely meet more often. We went into some fashion shops but did not buy anything and after her buying some chocolate for her parents we left after 4 hours and drove home. 
Yesterday was boring, my mum went grocery shopping and I went with her. I remembered that I still have to write a poem for the poetry slam in German, make my presentation for English which I have to present on Tuesday and make my politics homework which I need on Tuesday as well. And this is excaxtly my plan for today in addition to reading and doing sports. The weather is good so I am probably going outside to do so. 

I hope you have a nice Friday! Becca XXX