Overwhelmed 

Guys, 

Only 100 days until the football season begins!!!😍

So now to what I actually wanted to say: I just cannot do anything anymore, not physically but mentally. Tomorrow is the first of my two oral exams for my A-Levels, tomorrow’s is math. It does not feel like a part of my A-Levels. Maybe because I haven’t had school since 18 days or because there is no one I can talk about it with. I just do not take it seriously not even one day before. It might be as well because regardless of how many points I get (I only need one to pass my A-Levels) my average is shitty. So I can be very relaxed because the teachers tend to give at least one point although I am certain my math teacher hates me. He will probably take a topic for tomorrow’s exam in which I am very bad. Anyway, it’s math, I will be satisfied if I get at least five points everything above would be a dream. The problem is I just cannot remember everything of the last two years! Especially not in math! 

Furthermore, my cat is very ill. She has barely moved and eaten since Sunday and only drank a bit this morning. I was not sure but when I touched she felt like she has temperature . So I went with her to the vet – only one day before my important exam. And I was right, she has 40C temperature! So she got a vitamin cure, antibiotics and an infusion. We got protein and Vitamine food and a painkiller for at home. All in all it costed 100€. Wow, I am totally broke now, although I babysitted twice this weekend. 

In addition to that, the fact that no host family was interested in me for more than one week and that there were only 5 ones overall in more than 4 weeks burns me out. My friend who is visible for host families for two weeks now has as much family suggestions as I. That’s frustrating. I get already used to the idea to stay in Germany. Now that I am finally aware of what I want it does not work out. At least I do not have to blame myself for taking so long until I was finally activated I did everything as fast as I could, even if I had wanted it since day 1 I would not have been visible for the host families any longer. I think most host families already found an AuPair and I am too late. I am still sad about not getting chosen by the host family from Texas. Now I do not know what to do if I cannot do my year abroad! There is only one month left until my preffered departure date. Weird. 
Well, first I have to pass my A-Levels now and then I can worry about my year abroad. Maybe a new family suggestion would distract me tomorrow anyway.

Spring break!!!

Well, no we are in Germany so Spring Break is no big thing here. A lot of my class mates go on holidays for example to Italy, Austria or South Africa. But I stay at home. I can start learning for the oral part of my A-Levels which take place at the end of May. What I surely do is going to the vet with Frau Schröder on Monday. Moreover I asked Jaqueline and a friend from primary school if we can meet. We have no date yet. I really want to binge watch Prison  Break. I started watching it 1 month ago. I am currently in the middle of season 3. I LOVE IT. IT IS MY NEW FAVORITE TV SERIES. I cannot believe it is 10 years old. I was 8 when it aired on TV. Weird. I really like Wentworth Miller and Sarah Wayne Callies. They have a great chemistry. I think the first season was the best one. Okay the second one was only slightly worse but I really dislike Season 3. I do not know why. I think it is weird and I do not think that Bellick’s development is realistic. I do not want to spoiler much. I did not start the show because I heard there will be a fifth season but because we got Amazon Prime and there are not many movies and series I am interested in which you could watch for free. Believe me or not it was coincidence. Since then I am totally addicted and tried to watch two episodes a day but when the A-Levels started I missed that goal more often. Originally I planned to finish the series around the 8th April because then the new episodes air on German TV but when I want to accomplish that I have to increase the number of episodes per day. I do not like the idea because I want to enjoy the show as long as possible so I am not able to watch the new episodes on TV. Maybe I am buying the DVD later. 

Have a nice day. It is going to be 25 C today so I am going to spend my time outdoors today.

XOXO Becca❤

New Year

Hey,

I hope you all came good into the new year and I really thank you for giving me your attention in the new year!♥
Maybe you remember that I told you that I want to see the ball drop in New York City but I did not wake up. This year I made it! Perhaps because I went to bed at 2:30am and not at 4am like last year. 

I went to my parents but I just sat there and read. My grandmother came over 15 minutes before midnight. This New Year’s Eve was weird. We just talked and almost missed midnight. We drank champagne and my dad said it. He really did but I told him he can save that and guess what, he was offended. He has not talked to me anymore. That was okay. My grandmother left almost immediatly after midnight and my mum went to bed as fast as she could (it was 1:15am). My cat went crazy. She was really scared. Originally she went upstairs into her bed but she came down when the fireworks started and hid under the christmas tree. I think she was glad that I came to calm her down because she emerged from the tree straight away and I gave her a cuddle until the fireworks ended which was approx. a quarter to 1. She shivered with fear and had really big eyes. If it had not been so scary for her it would have been really cute.
My grandfather phoned and wished us a good new year. We talked a bit and he said he wants me to come this year. I do not see him often, once in a few years but I do not know what to do or talk about with him. So I do not think I am going to visit him this year. Moreover, he is living at the other side of Germany. Well, after my mum went to bed I went upstairs too because my dad ignored me and I watched TV a bit. You probably still know that I like to watch other countries celebrate new year what I did this time as well. I have a few photos for you! 😉

Today was not very special. I learned for my A-Levels when I remembered that I have to do a presentation in computer science after winter break what I have to do, too. Great! I do not even get the topic! Whatever! I will drop it anyway.

At the moment I am watching New York Giants against Washington Redskins. Have you seen that the Vikings won? I know they did not make it into the playoffs but I was happy after all.

When I sat on the couch cuddling my cat I convinced myself that 2017 is going to be MY year. I do not why I am persuaded about it but I suddenly had the feeling yesterday. I hope that it will come true…

Hope you have a nice sunday.
Becca♥

P.S. Jaqueline did not come over, she wrote me already an hour before that she is really tired and almost falls asleep. I was tired as well so i could bear it.

Me, again

And hi there, a third time.
I just wanted to inform you my cat is back.
I am still bored although I just found out that the song “Nehmt Abschied Brüder”, which I learned at school, is the English song “Old lang syne”, which is a New Year’s Eve song. Why I write about it? Lea Michele sang the song at the end of New Year’s Eve and I was sure that I know the melody and even remembered the lines: “Die Zukunft liegt in Finsternis und macht das Herz uns schwer” and I googled it and bam there it was. Bam. Okay, I do not know what else I can write. By the way, we do not have firework this year. I hate New Year’s Eve, my sis is not there, my mum wants to go to bed after midnight asap and my dad says he only does it for us but I think he just do not want to be the only one who watches it… Yup. So again, Happy New Year, especially for Greece, Egypt and all other countries in this time zone.
We are next guys. I think I am going to my parents now and I am hungry, who wants to start in a new year hungry? Oh I hear now Hong Kong sang Old lang syne when they welcomed 2017.
CU next year!

Becca♥

The true New Year’s Eve

Ok guys, I was wrong, New Year’s Eve was completely different!

After I posted New Year’s Eve I went upstairs to my room to watch the New Year’s Celebration in Sydney, it was amazing, especially the gold rain from the Harbour Bridge! Unfortunately the webcams did not work and it aired on no German TV channel so I zapped around and foIMG_1252[1].jpgund BBC World News, Euro news and Sky news – fortunately! Then I tried to watch a New Year’s Celebration somewhere in the world at the full hour, I published the pictures in my Gallery, they are in a bad quality because I took the pictures with my iPod. Well I sat there, the whole day, and watched TV. My mum came back from work because we had a fight because I reminded her that my sister is a vegetarian but we had nothing to eat for her for dinner. Moreover, she said she does not wanna go to church because she has still so much to do so we stayed at home and I was soo bored and because of our fight I did not wanna help her (very

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Ryan (Lucas Grabeel) and Sharpay (Ashley Tisdale)

childish, I know). We started eating at 7pm and were finished at 9pm. And that means for me? You are right I did not  watch New Year’s Eve but HSM 1 + 2. Everyone was on his / her own.  We got to know that in Munich was a terror threat. Well it is kinda difficult to realise that there could be suicide bombers that near… Fortunately nothing happend thanks to the French intelligence agency!
My mum went to bed at 11pm and my sister, my dad and I started watching James Cameron’s Avatar and stopped it 10 minutes before 12. We got our champagne and went outside to fire our only firework. It was okay. The sight was terrible because of the fog. We went back inside where Frau Schröder woke up my mum because she miaowed really loud. Mum just wished us a happy new year and got back to bed while I cuddled with my cat and we continued watching Avatar. I excused myself  5 minutes before 1 so I could watch the Celebration in London. A short time after I came back I fell asleep. I went to bed at 3 am after I watched the New Year’s Celebration in Rio.
THE REALLY REALLY BAD THING IS THAT I OVERSLEPT THE CELEBRATION IN NYC ALTHOUGH I SET FOUR ALARM CLOCKS!!! Damn it! I try it next year again. I got up at 9am and watched Cinderella. After that I made breakfast and at 12 pm my dad and my sister got up aswell. I hope your New Year’s Eve was awesome, I still hate it!

I did not forget you!

Good afternoon! I hope you’ve not thought that I forgot you! I was just very, very, VERY busy. We are writing so much exams now and I have do to a lot of presentations AND we have barely Internet. This is the reason why the street gets digged up. And I am in a crisis. Last week was a Native American , not an Indian, just somebody who was born there, in our school to introduce the American way of life to us in a free presentation. This was sponsored by an organisation which places Au pair in American families. Maybe you remember that I always wanted to visit the US! My post about the trip of my cousin to the USA.
I have already read some of the experience reports by other au pairs. I do not know what to do. Luckily I have some time left to decide if I should do it… Well Pro are that I can spend one year in the USA for just a bit money and I even earn some money and have one month to travel around the USA! I really enjoyed my time alone in England and hope this would like it. Besides that I would have one more year to think about my future and I would improve my English! Moreover I would meet new people from all around the world although this is one con point because it is very difficult for me to find new friends. Aside from that I have to leave my family and my grandmother, about who I am afraid, I do not want her to die while I am away. Furthermore I am afraid I do not understand them and they do not understand me! The biggest point is that I do not want to leave my cat because I am afraid that the forgets me and does not like me anymore when I am back… But my mum really likes the idea. But I am uncertain about what I should do…

 

P.S. Just found an interesting blog about beeing Au Pair in the USA while I was searching for an image;)

Today

Hello, hello, hello!

Today was good. I had just 6 hours and one of it was a free period. While I had my free period I bought a present for my sis and a toy mouse with a laser for my cat. Frau Schröder does not understand how it works, she wants to cuddle with the mouse and not catch the laser point. 😀 Although this year – okay it was just 4 days now – I do not know what to feel. I like the school, the teachers are good (except Sport) but I do not know what to feel about my fellow students, the ones I was in one class last year do not talk to me anymore and all the new (new for me) students some just ignore me and some talk to me but I do not know what they think about me. Last year was really alone, I had no friends. There were a few girls I got along well with but one do not talk to me anymore and the other one talks to me but is not interested in my answers anymore. So let’s see how it will develop. There are – luckily – just 2 years left… I have to stop now I am watching a really exciting episode of Criminal Minds called Lockdown (10×16).
CU Becca