2/3 

English: done

German: done

The only subject left is history and I have still 6 days until it. I am ONE of the people who write during the longest time. 

The suggestions in German were excellent. The first one was about the poem “Notturno” written by Max Herrmann-Neiße in 1914. Task 1 was to interpret it. The second one was to compare it to the poem “Erwartung” by Joseph von Eichendorff, published 1826? (I am not sure anymore) and to relate it to the historical background. Discussing if lyric is a suitable medium to express human feelings. 

Suggestion B’s first task was to Reader the excerpt of Max Frisch’s novel Stiller and to point out what his situation is. Second, one had to compare the expectations on him to the one on Johanna from  “Die Heilige Jungfrau von Orleans” and how they deal with it. Third, one should compare the relationship of Goethes’s Gretchen and Faust to the quote by Max Frisch  

“Auch sind wir die Verfasser der anderen; wir sind auf eine heimliche und unentrinnbare Weise verantwortlich für das Gesicht, das sie uns zeigen, verantwortlich nicht für ihre Anlage, aber für die Ausschöpfung dieser Anlage.” – Erstes Tagebuch

It means something like we are the authors of other people, too. We are responsible for them in a inescapable way and responsible for the side of them they show us. Not responsible for their aptitude but what they make of it.

Suggestion C was an excerpt of “Die Blechtrommel” by  Task 1) was to summarize it and outline the stylistic and narrative perspective. 2) was to compare the view of the main character and the circumstances of his birth to Grenouille from “The Perfume” by Patrick Süskind. Last, one had to argue why the quote (I do not remember how it goes exactly) that Kafka is afraid of the world because he is not very experienced and that this is a spiral that never stops fits to Kafka’s protagonist K from “The process”.
Of course I picked A without further thinking but for a short time I thought about picking B. I wanted a comparison of poems. But I think I screwed it up. I was not sure what the last stanza of “Notturno” means so after I realised it was written in 1914 I thought that – perhaps – it deals with World War I, too. So I compare the last one to the brutality of War and that it sound more coherent I added this aspect to the analysis of the other stanzas. It seemed so logical because expressionistic poems are often ambiguous. I could have googled if it is right what I wrote but I am afraid that it is wrong so I do not. I am so glad, that I did not have to write maths yesterday😆

PANIC

HI GUYS. I AM SO NERVOUS. I AM WRITING MY FIRST ABITUR EXAM TOMORROW. IT  IS THE VERY FIRST ONE IN HESSE. IT IS THE ONE IN ENGLISH. I HAD TO LEARN THE CONTENT OF THE LAST 1 1/2 YEARS. *HYPERVENTILATING* IT IS SO HARD TO REALIZE THAT THIS IS THE MOMENT I HAVE WORKED AND LEARNED FOR ALMOST MY WHOLE LIVE – AT LEAST THE LAST 12 YEARS! I NEVER THOUGHT THE DAY WOULD COME SO FAST. I FEEL QUEASY. THIS MOMENT DECIDES ABOUT MY FUTURE. IT EITHER MAKES THAT WHAT I WANT TO DO POSSIBLE OR IMPOSSIBLE. THERE IS SO MUCH PRESSURE. I CANNOT COME OFF BADLY BECAUSE MY OTHER GRADES ARE ALREADY BAD. TOMORROW IS SO IMPORTANT. EVERYONE EXSPECTS ME TO PERFORM GOOD. THE ABITUR IS THE ONLY GOAL I HAVE IN MY LIFE EVER AND IF I HAVE IT SCHOOL IS OVER. I STILL DO NOT KNOW WHAT TO DO AFTERWARDS. IT IS SO SURREAL THAT THE MOMENT IS FINALLY THERE. 

TO BE HONEST I HAD SOME PANIC ATTACKS IN THE LAST DAYS. I JUST STAND THERE ( AT SCHOOL, AT HOME OR SOMEWHERE ELSE IN PUBLIC) AND JUST HAD TO STOP AND PUT MYSELF TOGETHER OTHERWISE I WOULD HAVE CRIED BECAUSE THE THOUGHT OF WRITING MY ABITUR IN A FEW DAYS WAS AND IS SO OVERWHELMING. IT IS TOO MUCH FOR ME. I AM SO SCARED. I DO NOT THINK I HAVE LEARNED ENOUGH. I SHOULD HAVE LEARNED A LOT MORE. OMG. I DO NOT THINK I CAN SLEEP WELL TONIGHT. I AM SO NERVOUS. THIS IS CRAZY. UNBELIEVABLE. I DO NOT KNOW ENOUGH. MY STYLE IS BAD. MY FEHLERINDEX IS BAD. I DO NOT KNOW MUCH. THIS IS GOING TO GO TERRIBLY BAD. I AM SO AFRAID THAT I MESS IT UP. I HAVE NOT TAKEN IT SERIOUSLY ENOUGH. WHILE OTHERS LEARNED I DID SOMETHING FUN LIKE READING OR WATCHING PRISON BREAK (my new favorite season btw). I FEEL SO BAD FOR NOT LEARNING ENOUGH. I AM SO NERVOUS. I HOPE THERE WILL BE EITHER A POEM TO ANALYSE MAYBE IN REGARD TO SOUTH AFRICA AND APARTHEID OR THERE WILL BE A TASK ABOUT MULTICULTURALISM IN BRITAIN COMBAINED WITH PREDJUDICES IN THE US OR SOMETHING ABOUT THE AMERICAN DREAM. I HOPE THERE IS ONE OF THIS. PLEASE WISH ME LUCK. I AM SO AFRAID. 

GOOD LUCK TO ALL WHO ARE WRITING ENGLISH TOMORROW!

XOXO BECCA *PANICKING* 😨

England – Finally

Hey guys. Finally, I’ve made it, I am in Stratford upon Avon, England now! My flight went at 7:40 am so I had to get up at 5am bc it takes a half hour to get to the airport. I went to bed lately yesterday so I was really tired. Half of the way to the airport I had the feeling that I forgot my passport which I took out of my pocket to check in at home yesterday. And I was right, I forgot it, so we – my parents and I – had to drive back home to search it. When we arrived at home it was half past six. Fortunately we found it fastly and we drove back to the airport. We parked the car and wanted to leave the parking lot by elevator but it did not work so my father had to carry my 21.5 pounds heavy bag one floor down. I had to get to Gate B and my mum already panicked that my bag will not get into the plane anymore. It was 6:55am. We checked in my luggage and hurried to the security check. There we had to say our goodbyes. My parents gave me a little lucky pig. It was 7:07am. At 7:10 am my boarding started. I went through security check and to the toilet bc I drank a cup of coffee in the morning. Moreover I bought a magazine bc I did not want to get bored at the 1 hour and 15 minutes long flight. Then I had to go to the passport control and was happy that I realized earlier that I have forgotten him otherwise I would have never catched my plane. I was the last one who arrived at the boarding and right after me the boarding was completed. So it was very scarce. I had a seat at the window, the exact same number than the number of the seat at my first flight with my aunt from Munich to Frankfurt. This was my purpose as I chose it yesterday. The flight was over fast – unfortunately – and the guy from the company where I make my internship picked me up. Ok it took a while ’til we found each other and I had to phone him in the end. I googled him yesterday and the picture I found is not very flattering for him. In person he looks so much nicer and better and is really, really, really nice. Fortunately my mum made me bring some Thank-you-gifts for the people here with me too. We first went to drink a coffee and then had to hurry bc he had to be in time for his video conference. At the beginning it looked like me not 21.5 pounds but exactly 23 pounds heavy bag does not get into his little showoff BMW but it got in. We drove really fast to the company. There I got welcomed by three really nice ladies and got my own computer. Hannah, who should look after me, showed me around and got my my visting card. With this I was able to go through the building to go e.g. to the toilet. After that I got a task right away. I had to create contacts by tipping name, company, telephone and E-Mail from 28 papers into the computer. Then it was time for lunch and Hannah showed me the little town. We talked a little bit about what we like to do in our free time and I noticed that I am really bad at speaking English. Back in the company I got a new task: to update the old contacts. I was finish at “work” at 5pm. One of the nice three ladies – Christine – drove me to the bed and breakfast where I will stay ’til next friday. The owner showed me my room and fortunately brought my bag up to the 2nd floor. It was 6pm. Because it also rained I was not in the mood to go to the next supermarket 20 minutes away so I stayed in my room and unpacked my luggage and ate only an apple for dinner. Moreover I had to fill out the documents about my stay and what I want for breakfast the next few days. After that I skyped with my sister and my parents. Lets see how my stay will be, I am really excited and what I will dream in my first night, bc what you dreams then it gets true (said my mum).
Love you all and a pleasant night Becca

The picture above is my room in the bed and breakfast in Stratford.

Results of the test

While I was scrolling  and skimming through my old posts I noticed that I have not posted the results of the test with the intention to find out which job fits for me.

1. Interpreter 89.92%
2. Linguist 89.26%
3.Translator 88.73%4. Multilingual secretary 85.17%
5. Germanistin 85.57%
6. Cook 70.3%
7. Dietitian 67.87%

Except 6. & 7. they are all about language. That’s great because I really want to do something about language later!

So now my performance specification:
I have a little bit more general knowledge than the average of the other participants.
I can concentrate me better than the average.
My math knowledge is a little bit outstanding (I don’t know how I managed to get this result. I am really really REALLY bad at math.)My spelling is a little bit better than the spelling of the others. (This sentence sounds wrong).
The visual thinking of mine is a little bit better than the average’s ones.

If this results would all be correct I really would be outstanding. I cannot understand why I am so bad at school! 😉

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Sorry!

Hi Guys,

I am so sorry that it is almost a month ago, that I wrote the last time. I thought – even because I already started this blog – I would write more often. When I start something like a Twitter Account I am really excited and almost addicted to it for at least a week and then I am not in the mood to continue it anymore more often than not. I hope this will be different with this blog! I never thought that it would be so hard to handle school and free time. I rarely have free time! Since I transferred to a new school last summer I nearly do stuff for school. I have to do a presentation in PE about Newton and the Law of Inertia and in German I have to do a presentation about Lessing and his Goeze-Disput, also known as fragments dispute. AHHHHHHHHHH! I am so tired of everything (I am also very sleepy, also I was able to sleep ’til 8am yesterday because the first 2 lessons Latin dropped out. (Luckily) The train had a delay about 20 minutes so I missed my following train and went home because it would not have been worth to take the next train, which had been driven an hour later because I only had one lesson ( a lesson lasts 45 minutes) and when I would have arrived at school the lesson would have been over. Fridays I have only 4 lessons every two weeks. Yesterday the chemistry lesson dropped out, too. I did not think I missed much. Unfortunately I had vocational aptitude test in Wiesbaden. I do not have the slightest idea what I should/could do after school. I always wanted to be a pediatrician but a) I am too dumb and b) I do not like working with children – I made an internship in a kindergarten, it was horrible – and c) I participated in a first aid training, I was not bad but it was no fun and I think it is very disgusting sometimes. I appreciate people who like working as a doctor and it is necessary but it is no option for me. So I went there, the girls from my class, who took part in the test, too, were already there. The test lasted 4 hours. I thought there would be only questions about me and my personality but there questions about maths, PE, German, general knowledge and me and where I could imagine to work later. OMG, it was so stressful. The test was designed that we were not able to answer all questions so they were also able to see how we can handle stress. There were tasks like ‘Find the number which does not belong in the line : 8 … 98 … 16 … 49 … 32 …29 … 64 ( ok this is an easy one). We get the results in 2 – 4 weeks. Such a long time and then I find out I should work as a cleaning lady. The test costed 20 €! Ok no complaining ’til I have it. What did you do this weekend or are you going to do? I hope this is reading someone (probably not even if I had not a break which lasted approx. 4 weeks my life is not interesting) if not this is really crazy like communing with myself. I think I get insane. I do not know why but the word insane reminds me of TVD. I love(d) TVD! I mean ’til Season 4 it was good but Season 5 was really crazy I mean the most of the plot does not even make sense! Ok to be honest I only watched half of it and Season 6 fucks me of! SPOILER ALERT I mean Steroline should be friends not lovers and ok, it is cool that Alaric and so on is back but that is so unnecessary. The producers ran out of ideas. And Elena is as annoying as always, she will never grow up! Everybody has only to look out for her! With all one’s heart it was needless to let die Stefan first and then Bonnie and Damon in Season 5! Is the goal of the show that every character died at least once? In every season there are many new characters which all die after a short time. Also the characters do not develop. How long will this go on? It is boring now. So I decided to stop watching it. The only reason I watched it ’til now was Caroline Forbes. She is really great. I would love to be a little bit more like her. Ok I also still hope that Klaroline happens. They are sooooo cute! I do not understand how they could replace Klaus by Enzo. I mean it is obvious that they did it because they are both evil, good-looking and only nice to Caroline. Maybe if Enzo would have been there first I would have shipped Carenzo but KLAROLINE FOREVER!!!

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/List_of_fictional_supercouples
The last one at Prime Time Television!!!

Ok I talked to much about TVD, back to live. Today I did nothing except eating, showering and reading fanfics about Jelsa but I did not find a good one yet. Today was a lazy day, tomorrow I have to do homework and the presentations. :-((((( I do not want to!

CU Becca

P.S. The result from the task is the number 29 does not fit in, it should be replaced by 24,5.

P.P.S. KLAROLINE!!!