Decisions, decisions

Reading my title, I have to think of the blue bunny ads thanks to watching too much Chasing life (which takes place in Boston!!!) on freeform!

What I actually wanted to tell you is I am in the US for almost seven months now that means I get the email from Au Pair in America concerning my potential extension this month.
I am quite sure I have told you before how hard it is for me to make up my mind… I have thought about extending even before I arrived, almost every day.

Before I came here I was quite sure I would extend.

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Family trip to Utah

Hey folks,

I am very excited and nervous right now because we are flying to Utah today. I know, we have already made trips to Maryland, Philadelphia and New Hampshire but we drove there by car and now we use an airplane! I have no idea how this will go. What documents do I need? To be on the safe side I will take all: my passport (of course), my ID, my visa, my DS2017. I can’t realize we go there. We will land in Salt Lake City but we will stay in Park City in an AirBnB. Our flight will go at 7:20pm so we still have plenty of time. My suitcase is packed since friday. It is the small hand luggage suitcase. It was hard to get everything in there although we just stay there until friday but it is ski stuff which is puffy! I can’t believe I got everything in there! But taking the big suitcase would be weird, it would be half empty probably and my hostfamily has the small bags and I use my huge suitcase? No thanks. I have no idea what to exspect. That will be my second night flight and the boys are already tired so they will probably sleep. My hostdad said I should exspect us to arrive at our AirBnB at 2am. Great. Tomorrow is no ski school so we can sleep in but it is on Tuesday and Wednesday and we will meet my hostdad’s cousin someday too. I am not nervous about meeting his family anymore. His family is very nice, I am just anxious about me having forgotten everything I learned about skiing six weeks ago. As long as I do not have to ski on intermediate slopes again I am good. We won’t just ski there, my hostmum really wants to see the hot springs so hopefully we can do that too.

Here it has snowed overnight and I am not sad we will miss the snow. I take my computer with me so I can stream the Olympics there too. Between Utah and Massachusetts is a time difference of two hours and it will take us around six hours to fly there. I am already curious next to whom I will sit. But back to the Olympics, so because of the time difference most of the events are in the evening and at night. Luckily I sleep on the sofa in the living room so I won’t disturb anyone watching it. I am still doing good on my bet although Norway just overtook the lead at the medal table. Nevertheless I am very satisfied with Germany’s performance especially with Eric Frenzel (who won already one gold medal and still has the chance for more) and with Andreas Wellinger in ski jumping, one of my favorite sports to watch, I couldn’t imagine doing it, jumping down a hill, it looks more like flying. He won one gold and one silver medal and he can get one more gold? tomorrow in the team competition. I HAVE to watch it hence my computer.

I am so nervous, I can’t wait to leave and I really do not know what to do until we leave for the airport.
See ya!

Becca

Home

Hey guys,
I finally back. My adventure in the US continues. I had interesting last few months, where I put my finger in an immersion blender, had my first car accident, still have zero friends, have been to five different states, celebrated my first christmas and new years without my family, had an American thanksgiving, went to New York City to admire the christmas decorations, am going to an US-college, had a sleepover at a museum, watched the SuperBowl in the US (my host familiy’s favorite team won, my hostdad and my oldest host kid even flew to Minneapolis),  was skiing the first time after seven years, was snowtubing, made harbor cruise, baked a lot and am still not missing home.

So first of all, my finger is fine, it was on Patriot’s day and the boys had no school so in the afternoon we decided to make three different dishes, we, well more I finished the dessert, Banana split pie and we moved on to the next thing, carrot chickpea snacks. My oldest one does not like chickpeas so after succesfully mashing the chickpeas we decided to mash black beans. Black beans are much more solid than chickpeas so I decided to use the immersion blender to shred it. It worked out well, I was afraid the boys would get hurt so I told them to stay back and did it myself. After unplugging it i wanted to clean it, I even had to think about my mum and if it would be one of her stories I would cut off my finger now. Suddenly the immersion blender started and my finger was caught inside the blade. I was so shocked I just cried out once and told the boys to stay away. It started bleeding heavily right away and i tried to remove the blade from my finger. That was the moment I saw I did not unplugg the immersion blender but the mixer next to it. Damn!!! It hurted so bad and I clutched my finger and squeezed it as hard as i could to make it numb and stop the bleeding. I rushed to the bathroom to let cold water run over it. It was bleeding so much I bleed like a pig and left stains everywhere regardless of the mess I made when my finger was caught in the blender, I threw everything sitting on the counter down on the floor. To avoid the boys seeing me crying I send them away to have screentime while I panicked and started crying and wished my mum would be here because she knows what to do. So I paced through the house, crying, unable to watch how much of my finger I had cut off, hoping my host mum would come home. Unfortunately it was just after 3 and she would not be home for the next three hours. I was weighing the pros and cons of calling 911. I was worried about the boys, what would happen with them, what about my insurance etc, so I decided I had to look at it and see how bad it was but I just couldnt because I was so afraid to see how bad it really was because I knew my finger was still there but was it hanging at a string? After wandering through the house for 70 minutes I decided to look at it. I was a little bit dissapointed that the boys never looked for me but it was probably better. So when I lessened the pressure around my finger it started bleeding profusely again. I let water running over it now without my other hand protecting it so it washed up the fresh blood and i could finally see it, it was actually better than i imagined, I had cut it right where the finger nail started and even the finger nail was cut in half until the middle of the nail. I was just worried because it did not stop bleeding. I called my mum but she did not pick up so I called my sister, guys, I was desperate, I had to talk to someone! She was no big help because she was so engaged in her computer game. Well I just told her everything anyway and she told me mum was working. Because she did not listen anyways our call ended after 10 minutes and I started cleaning up the kitchen. I hoped I could clean up most of it before my host parents would come home, it was already a little after five. But I was not lucky this day, my host mum came approx. 5 minutes after I had started cleaning up, she said it looks like we were very busy and when she saw the blood I told her what has happended  but that I was fine. She asked if i would have to go to the hospital but I said no. So she continued working from home and I had to clean up the kitchen but I ended up talking to my mum because I had wrote her some messages which were stuff like ‘Do not worry, I did not die’ because I was frustrated when I haven’t been able to reach her. She was shocked and wanted to know everything in detail and i had to send her tons of pictures. She was worried but I tried to calm her down. When my host dad came home he was very worried and wanted to see it right away but we were about to have dinner so I did not want to ruin that and my host mum said I am old enough he does not need to check on me. Thanks! I was actually really relieved to show it to someone who was not thousands of miles away. After dinner i showed it to him and he said it is sketchy and I should decide if I wanna go to the ER he would drive me there. He has been there often because he had a lot of injuries already. But I refused his offer. My host mum gave me an antibiotic ointment which I applied and put an band aid on.
Now my finger is healed without seeing an doctor. My finger tip is numb and the part where the cut is is very sensitive, even the slightest touches hurt. My fingernail is split and started to protrude so I had to cut off these part and now I have a hole in my nail.

I am telling you more about the other events the next time.

What I wanted to write about was home. I got a 5 year journal at the beginning of the year, where you have to answer a question every day and they repeat every year for five years. It currently asked me what home is and I wrote that I refer to my living place in Germany as home as well as to my host parents house. At first I tried to not refer to the house in the US as home when I talked to my mum but that is ridicioulus, I was searching for a second family, although I doubt I found it. Today I realised I have no real home where I am feeling 100% comfortable. Alone the thought of returning to Germany scares me. Everything seems so small, boring and predetermined while I am free here. I can’t return, but should I extend? It is not as good as I imagined and most of the times it is awkward with my host parents. This question stressed me out so much, I knew already after a few weeks I would extend for nine more months but with the same family? The area is great, I kind of like the boys, they are so cute and well mannered and if I would leave them for another family I would definitly throw away even the slightest chance to see them as a second family and stay in contact. But maybe I would find a better family somewhere else! Ahhhhh! So I recently decided to wait what they would do, if they ask me to stay longer I would although I am not so sure, looking at my work, I wouldnt ask me… Well, to make it even harder, my mum suggested I should go to New Zealand as an Au Pair after my year here. I have no idea how she came up with this idea. She always tells me how much she misses me and she can’t wait until I come home and then she wants me to leave again? Why? She said I should think about it. I already did some research. I am not sure. I kind of like the idea but it feels like I will never accomplish something. I will start studying 3 years after graduation. My fellow students will be 3 years younger than me! I kind of like the thought to extend for 6 months AND go to New Zealand but my mum will hate this idea but I should make my own decisions! I mean it was her idea with New Zealand! But I do not want to break my mum’s heart! Oh man, what should I do? Moreover, I miss my cat Frau Schröder so much (she is actually the only living being I miss) and what would it do to her if I would leave her again? I would miss 2 years of her life!

Do not get me wrong, I love Germany. Staying in the US made me even realise how much! I just can’t bear the thought of returning home to my family in my small home town with no clue what to do in my future. I would not like to stay here permanently, Germany is too cool but I living somewhere else. When I don’t do it know I never will! And it is always just for a short amount of time and not for forever.

Btw, I am so proud of Germany leading the Olympic medal table. I even betted with my host dad that Germany would get more gold medals than the US, we did it already 2006 and 2010. Come on Germany!

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So Leuts,

I have less than 24 hours left with my family. I am total panicking, not because I leave ( I think that is going to happen soon) but because I am packing my suitcase since Sunday, okay I started on Sunday and continued yesterday and I have too much stuff. Originally I thought I am really good at packing, everything seemed to fit and I wasn’t even sure if I need the hand luggage but everyone made me feel like I have not enough and now I have too much (it does not fit into the suitcase I haven’t weighed it yet) and I does not know what to leave at home, everything seems important! I have not much else than clothes, is this normal? Unfortunately, the presents for the host family take one third of the space! Ups. 

My aunt made a USA – Rebecca is coming Party yesterday. There were burgers and beer (Bud light for me and German for the others, to be honest I haven’t tasted a difference) and I have baked cookie butter cupcakes. There was American music and my aunt wanted to know everything about my flight, my travel preparations, my first days in New York, my future if I want to expand. She said I should not answer the messages of my mum everyday because when I am not at home it should feel like it too. My mum could have killed her. 

I am still not nervous because I cannot realise I am leaving tomorrow. Weird. 

I crafted the whole week (instead of packing) goodbye presents for my parents and my grandma: a clock full of pictures with typical American images so they know what time it is in Boston and a calendar with pictures from us as well as from New England. Now that I am finish I think it is ridiculous and a totally self centered present but I thought I have to give them something! 

What I have to do today is obviously packing, cleaning up my room, it looks like something exploded in here because I have thrown everything I thought I wanted to take with me into the floor and now there is barely floor visible, I want to shower, eat all the stuff which only I eat (happy eating), vacuum at my grandma’s, search the suitcase scale, say goodbye to my grandma and my aunt, cook dinner (Chili con carne), maybe read, oh not to forget quit my job, sleep and I think that’s it. 

Football😍🏈

Hi there!

today the Football season finally starts! I am so excited and totally looking forward to it. I am already planning how I am going to watch it, the snacks, the place, etc. Just a few hours to go and then I am watching my new home team: the New England Patriots!❤ Unfortunately Julian Edelman is hurt and cannot play this season (and I have him in my Fantasy team😭). Moreover, I am disappointed in the Vikings, they cut Moritz Böhringer!😤 Hopefully the Vikings won’t make it into the playoffs and the Patriots will participate in the Super Bowl (at least). 😈

Visa granted

So guys, 

I had my appointment at the US consulate yesterday. I was not very nervous although my mom told me permanently that my visa will probably be declined. My only concern was that I would carry something with me I was not allowed to bring inside. When I was about to leave in the morning I just thought of my fitness tracker which I left at home then and because cell phones are prohibited too I had no watch! Argh! I had to take train and subway and although I left 2 hours before my appointment I arrived just 15 minutes too early. I was very scarred that I miss it because one has to pay for another appointment then. I.had to pass two security checks. At the first the man spoke German but at the second was a very bulky guy who almost screamed at us. I think being in the military feels like this. It was very weird but because of this experience I started talking with a very nice girl who will make an internship in Harvard and will live in Boston. We had to go to various counters where we had to show our documents until we had to line up before another counter, the interview counter. There was only one counter for 30 people. We were lucky, the line got longer and longer and in the end there were about 50 people and still just one counter. But the time flew by talking wwith the girl and later two guys joined in, the one has been several times to the US already and will stay three months in Atlanta. The other one makes an internship in another office of his company in Pittsburg. Go Steelers!

The interview itself was very short, the man behind the counter asked me what my purpose of my journey to the US is. I told him I want to do an year abroad as an AuPair in Boston, Massachusetts, He then asked what my childcare experience are and I explained him what I have done already. That was it. My visa got approved. I waited for the girl who was behind me and we went to the Central Station together. 

In general, I can say that all people who talked in English with me regardless if they were part of the security or behind a counter were ten times nicer than the ones who talked in German with me, okay one exception, the guy who interviewed me, he was very pissed and no the bulky security guy was nice, he even joked when we left. 

I will my host family when my visa arrives here. It takes one day to get proceeded says the official website of the consulate so I am hopeful to hold my visa this weekend!

Visa

So people, I got the date for my Visa appointment in the General consulate in Frankfurt. Next Wednesday I will go there. The possible dates were all very early and I have to take at least two trains before my appointment so I will not miss it! I am so excited. It is getting more and more real and although I can barely think about something else, I still can’t realise it! Only 86 days until I fly to New York! I am so happy!