Spring break!!!

Well, no we are in Germany so Spring Break is no big thing here. A lot of my class mates go on holidays for example to Italy, Austria or South Africa. But I stay at home. I can start learning for the oral part of my A-Levels which take place at the end of May. What I surely do is going to the vet with Frau Schröder on Monday. Moreover I asked Jaqueline and a friend from primary school if we can meet. We have no date yet. I really want to binge watch Prison  Break. I started watching it 1 month ago. I am currently in the middle of season 3. I LOVE IT. IT IS MY NEW FAVORITE TV SERIES. I cannot believe it is 10 years old. I was 8 when it aired on TV. Weird. I really like Wentworth Miller and Sarah Wayne Callies. They have a great chemistry. I think the first season was the best one. Okay the second one was only slightly worse but I really dislike Season 3. I do not know why. I think it is weird and I do not think that Bellick’s development is realistic. I do not want to spoiler much. I did not start the show because I heard there will be a fifth season but because we got Amazon Prime and there are not many movies and series I am interested in which you could watch for free. Believe me or not it was coincidence. Since then I am totally addicted and tried to watch two episodes a day but when the A-Levels started I missed that goal more often. Originally I planned to finish the series around the 8th April because then the new episodes air on German TV but when I want to accomplish that I have to increase the number of episodes per day. I do not like the idea because I want to enjoy the show as long as possible so I am not able to watch the new episodes on TV. Maybe I am buying the DVD later. 

Have a nice day. It is going to be 25 C today so I am going to spend my time outdoors today.

XOXO Becca❤

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🎶My Party, your Party, everybody join the Party…🎶

Okay, I am on my way back home now. It was like I had predicted only worse . No-one of my friends (I call them like that because I do not know how to call them instead, I mean I get along with them very well, we talk in school and chat although we do not meet outside of school and do not even spend our breaks together so I am uncertain about our relationship) was there. First, I did not know to whom I should go but decided to go to the girls from my major class. Well, they ignored me and it seemed like they did not want me there. I did not know where to go instead so I stayed there. More and more left and I felt like a total Idiot. Fortunately, one girl from my history class, the one that wrote history yesterday too, came to me and we talked about the exam yesterday. When she left only two girls were still there so I stayed with them. They talked about their experiences together and I wished I could go but thought a) that it is ridiculous to go there for only 45 minutes when it took me almost an hour to get there and b) that it would look weird if I left as first one that early. I drank some beer and Apfelwein. A “friend” who lives in town wrote me the whole time she would come. I stayed there 2 1/2 hours felt like an idiot and got shot with a ball but she did not come. When I was leaving she wrote she can come now. I think she was mad when I said she does not have to come anymore I am leaving. Of course, I could have stayed but I had to go to the bathroom and our school was already closed so I had to leave. She could have come earlier anyway, we already talked about it yesterday. But, yes, I feel a little bit bad about it. I hope my friend in Frankfurt had more fun! 

XOXO a disappointed Becca 

On my way

Hi people, 

At the moment, I am on my way to the Abiparty in our school to celebrate that we are finish with the written part of our A-Levels. It is today because the last exam – physics – was today. I only had 2 classes so I went home but I had barely one hour there before I had to leave again. Right now, I am sitting in the train. I did not want to drive because then I cannot drink something and it would be horrible to stand sosemester next to a lot of drink people 😉 And yes, I AM already 18 years old. A lot of people I get along with won’t come unfortunately. They did not want to come again or does not like the people there. I think we can make this party only once so why should I miss it. Anyway, if I do not like it there I can go home. A friend from an other school goes to the big Abiparty in Frankfurt but that is to far away for us. Okay, if I had to bet I would say there won’t be a lot of people. I assume this because of the talks I have heard. There will be all the typical people who make party nonstop and I will feel awkward probably. But let’s see. Maybe it will be awesome. I am still trying to convince this one girl, I get along with very well, to come, too. 

Okay I go partying! 

XOXO Becca❤

Finished

I am done with the written part of my A-Levels since 3 hours. I imagined it worse.

The first suggestion was a speech about the republic as state form from 1848. Task one was to summarize it and Task 2 to write about the different political meanings and the Vormärz from 1815 to 1848. The third task was to state if the excerpt from the speech that if the republic has to be forced onto the people it is no real republic anymore suits for the Weimarer Republik. 

Suggestion B was a manifest by the Nationalkomitee Freies Deutschland which demanded that the people should put up resistance against Hitler. Task one was to summarize and Task two to explain the different forms, motivations and dangers of resistance. Eventually one had to discuss whether Germany was free in 1949.

Suggestion C was about the German reunification. First one had to summarize the letter from the UdSSR to Kohl. Second, one had to tell the circumstances of the reunification 1989/90 and third, one had to explain what it means that Germany has learned of the last 40 years. 

I was not sure if I should pick A or B. When I have read A I was glad and really liked the third task. When I made some notes I could not remember what has happened after 1837. There was a blank space between 1837 and 1848. There has not happened anything relevant. I could have picked this suggestion but instead I took B. I have not learned the resistance in the Third Reich precisely but three years ago I made a presentation about Helmuth James Graf von Moltke and remembered a bit about him. Moreover I know a bit about Georg Elser, the Weiße Rose, Bonhoeffer and Claus Schenck Graf von Stauffenberg and made a lot of conclusions and maybe even weave some aspects. Hehe. To the last one I wrote about the state of occupation, the Marshall plan, the founding of the BRD and the DDR, the Grundgesetz, the monetary reform and Adenauers foreign politics. I think it was not so bad but I am mad at me that I have not chosen the first suggestion! 

But guys it is over! Strangely, I am kind of sad that it is over now. We get holidays on Friday and then I have to start learning for my oral exams in Maths and Religious Education. I think R.E. won’t be a problem but maths… 

Thank for your support! 

XOXO Becca

Empty brain

I have to write my last A-Levels exam tomorrow – History. I thought I can do it but it is so much. I have 20 pages (with front and back) with a lot of post-it’s about the German history from 1800 to 1949. Actually, I should know everything until 1990 but my brain and the time are too limited. The only thing I know is what I do not know. When I was afraid of German and English and could not imagine it could be worse. I cannot remember anything from history. My brain is totally blank. Moreover, I am very tired. I had no school today and I am learning since 12 am but it does not stay inside my head. I had hoped that writing it down will help me to learn it but I forgot somehow. Anyway, I think about doing this school year again so failing would help me make up my mind although I think there is nothing more horrible than messing it up. I think I started learning too late. I was convinced my written sheets help me but I CANNOT REMEMBER A DAMN THING! Help! I am so tired (physically and mentally). I am so afraid. History is about knowledge. Why did I chose it again? Oh yeah, because I am worse in any other subject. 

Please keep your fingers crossed. I am so scared! 

BECCA😱😨😰😭 (a total mess)

2/3 

English: done

German: done

The only subject left is history and I have still 6 days until it. I am ONE of the people who write during the longest time. 

The suggestions in German were excellent. The first one was about the poem “Notturno” written by Max Herrmann-Neiße in 1914. Task 1 was to interpret it. The second one was to compare it to the poem “Erwartung” by Joseph von Eichendorff, published 1826? (I am not sure anymore) and to relate it to the historical background. Discussing if lyric is a suitable medium to express human feelings. 

Suggestion B’s first task was to Reader the excerpt of Max Frisch’s novel Stiller and to point out what his situation is. Second, one had to compare the expectations on him to the one on Johanna from  “Die Heilige Jungfrau von Orleans” and how they deal with it. Third, one should compare the relationship of Goethes’s Gretchen and Faust to the quote by Max Frisch  

“Auch sind wir die Verfasser der anderen; wir sind auf eine heimliche und unentrinnbare Weise verantwortlich für das Gesicht, das sie uns zeigen, verantwortlich nicht für ihre Anlage, aber für die Ausschöpfung dieser Anlage.” – Erstes Tagebuch

It means something like we are the authors of other people, too. We are responsible for them in a inescapable way and responsible for the side of them they show us. Not responsible for their aptitude but what they make of it.

Suggestion C was an excerpt of “Die Blechtrommel” by  Task 1) was to summarize it and outline the stylistic and narrative perspective. 2) was to compare the view of the main character and the circumstances of his birth to Grenouille from “The Perfume” by Patrick Süskind. Last, one had to argue why the quote (I do not remember how it goes exactly) that Kafka is afraid of the world because he is not very experienced and that this is a spiral that never stops fits to Kafka’s protagonist K from “The process”.
Of course I picked A without further thinking but for a short time I thought about picking B. I wanted a comparison of poems. But I think I screwed it up. I was not sure what the last stanza of “Notturno” means so after I realised it was written in 1914 I thought that – perhaps – it deals with World War I, too. So I compare the last one to the brutality of War and that it sound more coherent I added this aspect to the analysis of the other stanzas. It seemed so logical because expressionistic poems are often ambiguous. I could have googled if it is right what I wrote but I am afraid that it is wrong so I do not. I am so glad, that I did not have to write maths yesterday😆

Done

hey there,

before I write my second A-Level exam tomorrow I want to tell you how English was. It was okay. When I got the three different suggestions I read them one by one. The first one was about slavery. There was a text about a 11 year old girl, who got a slave for her birthday but does not like it and lets her slave free. The first task was to summarize it. The second one was to analyze the stylistic devices and the narrative perspective and how they support the feeling of the girl. The third one was to write a speech as a speaker on a congress against slavery regarding a given bar chart about slavery in the U.K. today.

Suggestion B was about Ethnic identity. The text given were two excerpts of the drama “disgrace”. First, one had to outline the role of religion in Amir’s family. Second, one had to state on problems in relation to immigrants in the U.K. regarding material discussed in class and the last one was to assess whether cultural appropriation is reprehensible.

Suggestion C was about South Africa. This was a suggestion which had 3 tasks and a mediation. The mediation was about art as an expression of oppression. Task 1 was to summarize the English text. Task 2 was to compare the text to the picture given and to the killing of Amy Biehl in the novel “Mother to mother” by Sindiwe Magona, which we read in class. Discussing if art IS an expression of unsatisfaction was task 3.

After reading one by one I was sure not to pick the currently read one. I was almost ready to chose the one with the mediation although I thought it would be too much but after reading this one as well I was not sure which I should pick. They were all 💩. The first one I eliminated was C because the mediation text was terrible. It seemed it consisted only of names. Moreover, I did not wanted to work with the novel and was not sure what to write for task 3.

It took me really long to decide between A and B. Eventually, I chose B although I had not understand the text. I would have really liked to take A because writing a speech would have been great but the problem was I had not seen one stylistic device in the text and the task was important so I decided to take B. Fortunately, I understood the text while working with it but I think I wrote a lot of unimportant things and sometimes it is probably hard to understand what I mean. Later Jaqueline, who goes to a different school, told me that her teacher said that the Kultusministerium made a little mistake because there are only 2-3 stylistic devices in the text of suggestion A so it is not exspected to write about the stylistic devices but to write a general analysis. If I had known that I would have taken this suggestion! But I cannot blame my teacher because I asked the other English classes at my school but they have not known about it, too. Now it it over and I cannot change it anymore but this infuriates me more than I thought. Grrrr.

However, tomorrow I write my German A-Level exam and I am very nervous although I do not take it very serious because it would not have been necessary to learn for the English A-Levels so I think, better hope, for tasks like this in German, too, although there was no topic I had wished for in English. In German I would like to have poems from the Expressionism and the Romantic like the task last year. A task about “Die Jungfrau von Orleans” by Schiller, “Die Marquise von O” by Kleist or “Lenz” by Büchner would be okay as well. I definitely do not choose the task about “Der Prozess” by Kafka! Okay, I could pick the speech analysis if there is no other possible task although my teacher exspects a lot of background knowledge there. I am, again, not ready. I have not learned enough, again. I am nervous. I hope I can make it. Wish me luck.

All the best luck to the people who write tomorrow!

Becca;)